and so she will be baptised
10:29 p.m. on November 09, 2006
and so she will be baptised.
we decided to baptise Naima. i can't say it was an easy decision or that we didn't question the decision. we struggled but in the end we are happy with our decision.
abel was baptised as a baby and was raised deeply in the church. he was an alter boy, went to an all boy's seminary school and did the whole bit.
i wasn't raised in the church but my life was influenced by it. i wasn't baptised as a child as my father wanted my choice in religion to be exactly that, my choice. the older i got the more i learned about the church...my own choice. like with everything i do, i wanted to study it and make sure i knew what i was doing and getting into.
abel and i have never really been strong supporters of the church. we've questioned many of their actions and handlings of very serious situations.
but, then, life happened...
Mia came along and the day before we said goodbye we decided to baptise her. it wasn't even discussed. we simply called the hospital priest and asked him to do it. we didn't question ourselves. we didn't talk about it. it was like second nature to us to just ask for it.
and then we tried to have another baby. and with miscarriage after miscarriage i found myself relying more and more on God. literally having conversations with him. yea, i know, to admit that to some might raise a few eyebrows but it's all true.
i truly feel my faith got me through the last two years of mourning Mia and trying to have another baby. and so i'd like for Naima to have that too. to believe in something. to have hope that life can be beautiful even if there are some rough spots sprinkled throughout. i could try to do it the way my dad thought he'd raise his kids...let them choose when they get older if they choose anything at all...but i want Naima to know of the faith that helped her mommy and daddy keep it together....the hope that nutured us to where we are now...the love that surrounds her big sister.
and so she will be baptised.
