life so different
11:06 p.m. on August 19, 2006
i'm so exhausted. i really am missing my afternoon naps with Naima now that i'm back at work. my body is still programmed to take an afternoon nap that every day at exactly noon i start to feel SO sleepy. i have to literally run around the library. sitting at the computer doing library cataloging is a perfect prescription if you want a passed out sleeping librarian!
by the time i get home i'm so tired my body just wants to fall into the couch. and holding Naima after not seeing her all day just feels so perfect...so soothing...that it's easy to fall into a comfortable sleep. and on the weekends all i want to do is veg at home with her.
my life is so different now. when once i used to anxiously await for the weekend to go shopping or to meet up with friends to party, now i can't even imagine doing any of that. now, my weekends are all about spending time with Naima....finding more scenic spots for picture-time with Naima...shopping for the cutest outfits for Naima...all about Naima. there was a time when my life was so dark...so sad and heartbreaking that now, with Naima in it, it has once again seen some light and happiness. and once again i'm finally able to smile and laugh with a baby...my baby.
my heart hasn't completely healed. i don't think...no, i know it never will. it will forever have a part of it that hurts and aches for my darling Mia Marvelle. but at least it has begun to beat again...
