passing all exams
10:36 a.m. on July 01, 2006
i know all the benefits of getting all of her immunization shots. and i know a little more after receiving all of the pamphlets the pediatrician gave me. i know they're good and necessary but geez, does it have to be so heartbreaking!
my baby girl got 3 injections, two in one leg and one in the other. and she got another immunization by mouth...why can't they all be like that. i couldn't wait in the lobby like i thought i was going to do. i just couldn't be away from her. but i couldn't watch either. i was in the room and heard her scream and cry to the point where no sound comes out and her little head turns bright red. and when she let out her screams i couldn't stop the tears from coming. i thought i was going to faint. abel was trying to hold her and make sure i was ok as well. when the nurse was all done sticking my baby i grabbed her and tried to console by little baby.
mother and daughter stood there with tears of pain streaming down their faces and father tried to console both of them and the nurse walked away with a chuckle. the same scenario will be played out again at 4mo...damn.
by the time we got into the car she was all done with the crying and fell into her sweet dreams. she wasn't getting a fever and was sleeping so fine that we took a chance and went to see the man of steel movie. midway through the movie she woke up and started to freak out. i gave her a bottle but as soon as it was finished she wouldn't stop crying. it was a scary crying. i had fed her and changed her and she still kept crying. i was getting so scared thinking for sure she was having a negative reaction to the immunizations. it was a frantic hold-me-please-and-never-let-me-go cry. she wouldn't let me go...she would fall asleep and the minute i would put her down or stop rocking her she would start the high-pitched crying again. it wasn't until an hour after she got a dose of ty*lenol did she calm down.
she woke up from her nap with a big smile and a coo....music to my ears!
other than the needles sticking the checkup was great. Naima is growing, growing, growing! she now weighs 13lbs and is 24in long! she lifts her head very well while on her tummy and is very strong with her arms and legs. everything doc heard inside passed with flying colors as well.
i have to admit, there was a second of dreaded fear that came over me when the doc had her stethescope on, the room was silent and she was listening to Naima's heart. like a quick flash i imagined the doc coming up from the exam to say some kind of terrible news...a heart murmur...a breathing problem...but as quick as that thought came i quickly scolded myself for thinking like that. again, i TOLD myself everything would be just fine. and it is...
in other good news, something i consider a miracle as well, i PASSED my state librarian certification exam. i nearly fell off my chair when i saw the word PASSED. while freaked out about leaving my baby girl for the first time and being nerve-wrecked that daddy would be having to care for her and another newborn all on his own, i managed to PASS an exam i left thinking was extremely difficult with it's tricky questions. now that was a miracle!
