away for 2hrs.
6:35 p.m. on June 13, 2006
i had to leave Naima for 2hrs this past saturday and it was hell just getting out the door. i felt the tears well-up in my eyes and i tried to fight them back. but i couldn't hold it in...the emotion of leaving her for the first time was too strong and i started crying like an idiot. abel was sweet...he didn't laugh he just gave me a hug and reassured me she would be fine and that the time would go by fast.
i cried on my way to the testing site. i got myself together as fast as i could and rushed in to get the test over with. while getting to my testing room i ran into an old friend from junior high. couldn't believe it...running into someone from so long ago and from corpus. anyway, she asked the usual...where you living? what do you do now? did you marry abel? i answered them all and then came the obligatory question...any kids? i said, yes...two...i just had a baby 7wks ago and it was really hard leaving her to come do this.
then, i just excused myself wanting to get to my test. i did say it was nice seeing her again and good luck and then just left. after i left the test as was finally on my way home i thought of how i just abruptly ended my conversation with her. i just wanted to get the test over with and get home to Naima as soon as possible. she probably thought i was the rudest person ever! but i wasn't trying to be rude and i would've loved to continued the conversation but i was just focused on something, or someone rather, else.
well, since i couldn't even concentrate on a simple conversation those hours away from Naima i can only imagine how well i concentrated on my test. i'm getting this feeling that i'm gonna have to retake the test in august...damn!
