chunky monkey
12:36 p.m. on April 15, 2006
well, it looks like a c-section is inevitable. apparently i'm having a kindergarten size baby and Doc doesn't want to risk anything with a vaginal birth. neither do i.
we're a week and a half away from the big day and Naima is weighing 8.5lbs, give or take a pound. Doc ordered a whole bunch of measurment tests and her little head is not so little. a week and a half way from the big day her head is measuring in at 9.1. anything bigger than 9.4 is out of the question for a vaginal birth. every other measurment was coming in at 40wks instead of the 37wks that i am right now.
so, Naima is my little chunky monkey!
i'm not scared of the c-section anymore. i'm getting myself mentally prepared for it. i know i'll heal physically, that's not a worry to me. i'm more scared of any risks/dangers that may come to Naima. and if anything happens to her i don't know how i'll be able to heal emotionally. i want to avoid the NICU for the rest of my life and i don't know how i'll handle a stay in the NICU again. i know c-sections are common and are done all the time but i'm still scared that something can go wrong with Naima. but i'm trying to stay positive. i know i'm in good hands with my Doc. i know abel will make sure all is ok with Naima and me. i just need to have faith and keep praying...
