33wks, 6dys, NST & BPP u/s
11:38 p.m. on March 25, 2006
i have NEVER gone to a doctors appointment calm, cool and collected again ever since the day we went for Mia's first u/s with a video in hand...so happy we were going to see our baby...thinking nothing but joy and excitement and instead got the most devasting news a parent could get. no, ever since then, the moments before an appointment are filled with anxiety and spent trying to supress my fears.
and even though after every appointment with this pregnancy things have been ok, this friday was a little scary.
i went in for my twice a week NST and BPP u/s. i usually do the NST first and Naima is always very reacitve and buzzing around all the time with NO SIGNS of contractions. but yesterday i went in for the BPP u/s first and had the NST second.
the u/s tech was the director of radiology and she came in with another person in training. the minute i saw her i new i wasn't going to be very informed by her. and sure enough, i wasn't. she was quiet the whole time and wouldn't let me see the screen at all. i hate it when they do that!
she was taking a long time. longer than any of the other times i do this. and i wasn't starting to panic. i could feel my neck and head dreanched in persperation. and then she finally spoke.
she doesn't want to move at all, this little one.
what?!?! i had just heard the heartbeat and the blood flow and now she was saying the baby wasn't moving?!?! and then she didn't even say a thing about the test. she put the u/s machine away and told me to wipe my belly myself and sent me upstairs for the NST.
i don't know how i got upstairs without fainting or bawling my eyes out. when i finally got the NST room the nurse said the baby got a score of 4 out of 8...she usually gets 8 out of 8. i freaked and nurse could tell i was losing it. she told me to relax. that the baby was probably just in a deep sleep and not wanting to move or flex at all. she quickly hooked me up to do the NST and said the baby would surely show some reaction now.
and sure enough she did. after drinking a glass of ice cold water, Naima was moving all over the place and showing heart accelerations as well. i was relieved and calm once again. but my doc wanted a repeat of everything the next day. so, today we spent most of the afternoon in L&D doing another NST and BPP u/s. this time she passed both the NST and the BPP u/s with an 8 out of 8 score. thank you, God!
my estimated induction date has been set for april 28th. that's a whole month away!
please, God, help me get through this last month with my sanity in tact and my optimism full but most of all with a healthy happy baby in the end.
